Development Day 20th October 2012

Letting Go

 

Once we know what has been released into our conscious awareness we are aware of what we are holding onto and perhaps why? We need to let go!!!

 

Letting go can be as simple or as difficult as you wish to make it, all depending on your willingness, compassion and determination.

 

Letting go of part of our identity is a real challenge for our egoic self.

 

Ego

With the need to understand comes the ego. This can trip us up into too much thinking and leads us to going round and round in mental circles!

‘How can I help my ego to let go?’

Re-training the mind into stillness will give you back the mastery of your conscious and help you to have more clarity for awareness.

 

Our inner child can find it hard to let go even if it means keeping the suffering.

 

Inner Child

Most of our pain comes from negative childhood experiences. Because we are not equipped to process with awareness, the pain is absorbed, often in an exaggerate way and through coping mechanisms it creates blocks in our chakras. The energy created by this becomes our personal truth. In layers we hold onto these truths in order to survive the continuing dysfunction. If we are nurtured, by being heard and our feelings are validated, we can let go of the negative energy and move forward without holding onto the effects. If, as with most of us, we are denied this vital communication, we hold on tightly and carry it forward in the belief that it is who we are and not experience but our truth.

‘How do i let go of childhood suffering?’

Letting go of childhood pain can be a lengthy process, it is a way bigger subject than can be covered today. Becoming a parent to your inner child can help to readdress some of the issues held in childhood, providing her/him with a safe place to express thoughts and feelings and validating these can be very helpful. Parenting via the universe by letting the universal love parent for you or with you is very powerful. This involves trust in the divine and trusting you are the divine. There are many regression tools that can help you to heal your childhood.

 

 

Sometimes what we are holding does not belong to us.

 

The Tribe

Sometimes it can be connected to ancestral interference or to our living family members.

Looking closely at your family and the way they behave with you and each other is a really useful thing to do. It may reveal patterns of behaviour that have been passed down the family line, repeating again and again, changing slightly in response to the modern times but playing out the same suffering and dysfunctional patterns.

‘Can I let go of inherited pain?’

Ancestral interference can be dissolved with development and/or entity release healing. Our ancestors can feel a responsibility to keep you in a belief that they hold. They may be concerned for you morality or wish to be in control of your journey in some way. I will do a day on Ancestral interference next year it is a big subject.

 

Not all of our wounds come from the child within. We continue to experience suffering all the way through our lives. Some people can have relatively good childhood and then have trauma experiences later on in life. Just because your parents loved you, does not mean that you have not gathered painful experiences to release and let go.

 

Areas of life that can challenge us and leave us in trauma

 

School

Teenage and grown up relationships

Work

Death

Birth

Accidents

Being a part of or witnessing violence

Sexual abuse

Mental abuse

 

We can be very honest and open about our issues and understand them but unwilling to let them go!

 

Why?

 

We can be aware of our dysfunction but refuse to let go out of fear. Fear is in all negative reactions, feelings and opinions.

 

‘What do you fear?’

 

Fear of disapproval 

Fear of change

Fear of not being enough

Fear of not being accepted

Fear of the unknown

Fear of my body

 

Who will I be without…..?

 

Physical Holding

Addictions – alcohol, drugs, food etc

Possessions – Things belongings, house, car etc

Physical holding is related to coping mechanisms. There is always underline emotional issues behind the physical.

 

Emotional Holding

We hold onto our negative emotions because our ego needs us to feel safe and they are familiar even if it is destructive and uncomfortable. This can be about any part of us. The negative relationship with our body is an emotional holding.

 

Spiritual Holding

Fixed beliefs

Fear of God/unknown

Religious trappings

Often inherited or past life but also can be a result of bad teaching or negative experience in childhood or adulthood.

 

Read – Reading from Emmanuel

 

What has fear told you would happen if you stopped being afraid? Ponder that as you go off to sleep tonight and write down what comes to you. Make note during the day of fear’s promptings.

 

Fear is a habit, an addiction, a powerful superstition. It is a useful practice to ask yourself in moments of discomfort, “And what if fear were not here? What would be my experience?” Fear will step in to remind you. “But you can’t do that. You can’t imagine not being afraid. It’s too dangerous.”

 

“Oh yes I can,” must be your response, “Not only can I imagine it, I can remember it.” Each one of you holds that holy memory of being in the freedom, the joy, and the ecstasy of Home. In your daily life, no matter how much pain and suffering you may encounter, Heaven is with you, and that is what your hearts most want to know.

 

Fear wears so many labels: common sense, behaviour, responsibility, even “mature doubt”. Jot down what fear whispers. It is simple, extremely important, and powerfully transformative. Fear believes that it is fighting for its life and, as you will discover when you do these homework assignments, it is.

 

 

‘Can we let go of the suffering that is in our unconscious and that we are not aware of?’

Yes we can if we have the willingness, to trust the letting go. It is not always possible to identify with the mind what is wounding us. If the wounds are from our very little self we wouldn’t have had the language to understand what was going on at the time. The trick with this is feeling rather than logically analysis.

 

 

Things that can stop us letting go

 

·       Ancestors

·       Entities

·       Inner child

·       Past lives

 

 

Pain Bodies

 

Personal

 

We all have a pain body. We can imagine it as an entity separate from our true self that needs feeding with the fear of our egos.

 

The collective pain body

 

We are born into these. Example- female pain body is the memory of the oppression that have been inflicted on women by men and themselves for 2 thousand pus years.

 

Entities

 

These are negative energies that come in many forms that attach themselves to us for various reasons. They make us feel ‘not ourselves’ and can be picked up or passed down.

 

Who am I?

 

What we need to understand is that we are not what we experience and what we feel in our body and mind!

We are an infinite being of love consciousness that is pure and perfect at birth and continues to be perfect through our life until we die and return to source.

We gather experience, negative and positive, and collect it in our mind and body to learn and grow in order to fulfil our contractual agreement with source. It may be that the experiences you have and hold onto are exactly what you have signed up to practice in this life time. The divine gives us all the resources to complete our tasks. It is our hope, willingness, bravery and strength that assist us constantly with our journey to understand self, and therefore understand divine love. So we have chosen our path and with the gift of free will and choice, we can choose what we hold onto and what we let go of!

 

Ways of letting go!!

 

Awareness

Love

Healing

Forgiveness

Cutting the ties that bind

Self development

Willingness

 

   Awareness

 

To be aware is to be present. In the present we are not in the past or the future but in the now. To be in the past or the future limits us and traps us in illusions. When we are in awareness we are in our true authentic self, this gives us clarity to create a gap between our thoughts and our feelings. In this gap we can let go of any part of our suffering with ease, as the awareness helps us to see the illusions that we are holding onto with fear of letting go.

 

Love

 

Love or self love because that is all the love there is, will dissolve all pain suffering and fear.

 

Healing

 

There are many types of wounds and there are many types of practices that can heal the wounds. Choosing the type of healing you require depends on what is being held on to. Counselling, reiki, soul rescue, theta, hypnotherapy are but a few on the market today!

 

Forgiveness

 

If we feel that we have been scorned or dishonoured in some way it can be hard to let go because we need to forgive to release and let go of the wound. Letting go of self hatred also requires forgiveness. This can be hard to recognise in the first place in order to be released! But even then once it is released into the awareness, self forgiveness can be the hardest forgiveness of all to let go of!! 

 

Cutting the ties that bind

 

This is a meditation visualisation journey practise. It is a powerful way you can let go of the attachments from the past present and future. It can work for all aspects of your inner and outer life. (You can find this here under meditations.)

 

Self development

 

You are doing it! Group work, workshops or classes are a very dynamic way to develop but all self development will help you to let go.

 

Willingness

 

Only you can do it!! There must be a willingness in order to let go. Nobody can do it for you or force you into it.

 

 

Thoughts of the day

 

“Only I have the power to truly let go of my fear and of my past.”

 

“How long will I choose to hold onto the suffering?”

 

“Make peace with yourself!”

 

 

·       The first step is to accept that there is an imbalance that needs addressing.

·       The second step is to identify the imbalance – this can be physical emotional or spiritual, all 3 are intertwined.

·       The third step is to release it.

·       The forth step is the letting go.

 

 

Love Anna x

How to be in 2013?

 Write up by Anna Taylor on a talk by Kay Kraty.

This is a brief translation of Kay’s talk. There was too much in the talk to explain every detail. I have taken the bones of it to explain to you today.

This understanding of the energies of 2013 comes through the discipline of Numerology.

Numerologists use the qualities of the numbers as opposed to the quantity of a number. Each number has its own personality. When a number is teamed up with another number their combined personalities blend together to give a package deal of energetic possibilities.

Why talk about 2013 in 2012?

As we travel through the numbers, they gather the qualities of the previous numbers. For example the quality of the number one is in all numbers.

September resonates with the number 9, the 9^th month of the year. It holds all the energies of the previous numbers and has gathered all it can, some may say it represents completion but is in fact taking us to the next number which is 10.

As we move into October, November and December the numbers overlap, ramping up the energies to make the next level. 10,11and 12 are transition numbers which take us into the next year. So in the last three month of the year, we begin to be aware of the energies of the next year, in this case into 2013.

The energies of 2012 has given us alchemy, the ability to reach higher levels of energy which refined out path, bringing impeccability and this makes it harder to stay in imbalance. This brings truths to the surface and leaves us no place to hide!

The solar activities of this year have been accelerated. Scientists have been looking cautiously at the activity. The solar particles from the sun, which are loaded with solar radiation are not forming their normal patterns, and are possibly affecting gravity. This makes sense from a spiritual point of view, helping the ascension to create lightness in our being.

The earth is changing due to the solar activity. The influences of solar flares create these changes, which are interfering with the animal kingdom whose patterns of behaviour are being messed up. As we are also animal so expect your own patterns of behaviour to change.

Technology is being affected and disrupted.

If you look back at the energies of 2012 you will understand in more depth what Kay spoke about for this year. Now we have lived through this year we can understand how it affects us on a personal level.

So into 20 13.

We are still in the energies of the 20 and will be for the next 88 years. We are in the baby stages of 20, still finding our way with this new vibration. The energy of the 20 is femininity, the goddess and with this we can expand and create in a very different way from the one energy that was the last millennium.

Next year brings us the 13. The number 13 can be challenging, it can be a very destructive power which can whip the rug right out from underneath us. It has the power of the one and the spiritual awareness of the 3. 1+3 =4 and the number 4 will bring matter into form.

By standing in our truth and upholding it, emotionally and spiritual, we are in the right place and we will stay upright! 13 energies recognise that spirit is in everything and there is no place to hide. If we are honest and straight up about our flaws we will be in alignment with divine will. Denial will bring confusion and could put you on your back.

The truth will out! 13 brings transparency we can see this already happening, in the news we see exposure to old truths.

As the human body is limited, the change of the consistency of the physical is needed. You will recognise this in your own life with food intolerances and sensitivity to environments.

It is not a time for martyr behaviour but instead make sacred all that you do, ingest and create. The earth’s blue print must mirror that of the divine’s; this means inner purity is needed to align to the pure light energy emanating from mother earths centre.

Be in mindful presence, this will bring you into sink with higher energies. Be flexibly and not ridged in your everyday life. Flow with the universal laws. The discipline can be difficult and hard to achieve but honesty with self and others will get us through these challenging times.

How to be in 2013?

Inner purity and purification

This does not just mean being mindful of the bodies need but it requires us to change our negative responses internally and externally. The intention to purify is powerful, by using your own source/love energy you can create inner cleansing. With food and water, give it as much high energy as you can by blessing it with love and being grateful for it including where it is sourced.

It is important that we learn how to respond to Self -responsibility. This means being responsible for self only. You are not responsible for anyone else’s journey in any way. You may feel that you have to help or take charge of someone else’s life. This only brings you into manipulation. Only they and their god know what is truly needed. Don’t let your own fears interfere with another’s or you may be denying them important experience that they need.

It is up to each one of us to attain our own inner purity. Allow others to make their own decisions. By all means seek knowledge from the experience of others. But allow this knowledge to become your own wisdom. Information is not wisdom, personal awareness is required.

Symptoms in 2013

Deep grief and sadness – we may find that we grieve for the passing of the old order. Remembering who we once were!

Ego crisis – time shifts and magnetic fields change our identity which challenges our egos and the old identities we have created.

Past veils thicken – we will forget much from our past

Present veils thinning – our awareness will become more acute. As in 2012 we become more psychic and sensitive to etheric energies.

Inner Christ child – to understand the needs of the inner child, especially the inner Christ child will help us to recognise our inner divinity. The more we believe in our god/spirit, our true and authentic self, we will become brighter. Nurture it and feed/water it. (Kay called this the Tinkerbell effect. ‘I do believe in fairies I do I do I do’!)

Planetary movement and cosmic forces – this is effecting, amongst other things, the weather and even the food produce. We lost broccoli this year for a time, which greatly upset me!!

Poles shifting – we are shifting as the earth is shifting. Be mindful of the effects on the elements, water, air etc it is all changing.

Methods of exchange – this will have to change. By raising our own vibration and letting go of our fear we will not be affected by the poisonous vibrations this may bring to our environment.  Become the eye of the storm.

Discipline and structure – that we choose and are responsible for. The lower level mind needs to be contained and given structure so the shift does not discombobulate us. 

Honest self examination – Be honest with yourself and be honest with others. It will be useful for us to seek opinion from those we trust. Ask them to give you an honest appraisal of how they see/feel about you. What can I improve? Etc. The saying ‘you can’t see the frame if you are in the picture’ comes to mind.  We can be stuck in our self opinions and evaluations, an external view point can be very enlightening.

We continue to work as a collective. If you are finding it hard to go it alone than seek help. We cannot learn all we need to learn on our own. We are all students and teachers.

I sincerely hope 2013 is a wonderful year for you.

Thank you for listening.

Love Anna x

Release – Development Day 8th September 2012

Release, let go and surrender is a popular saying in this present day. But what does it mean? Today we explore the understanding of release.

One may think that releasing and letting go are the same thing. But it is hard to let something go that hasn’t been released. The universe flows effortlessly creating and destroying in balance and maintaining harmony. 

We hold onto way too much and this brings imbalance. The ebb and flow of the life force cannot get past the blocks that we create. We can live in self righteousness and self pity, complain, and feel that life isn’t fair. Until we make the choice to release our self from the burdens of our baggage, we will not only be stuck in this negative destructive pattern but it encourages more of the same. As we know, the universe works with The Law of Attraction so what we feel, think, do and be all comes back to us stronger and with more certainty. This is good news for those who are full of love and passion, not so good for those full of sadness and self hatred.

I am not saying it is easy to make the changes necessary to unburden your soul. Living in your own personal hell isn’t ease either but it is familiar! This familiarity can keep us trapped in our own illusions. These illusions build and build, the older we get the more ingrained they become. Fine tuning is necessary and attention to the details is need to release and let go

Today we look at… 

 

What is Release?

 

We often instinctively know when something is not balanced and harmonious inside us. 

 

Examples of indications of imbalance?

Illness/dis-ease

Tiredness

Mood swings

Depression

A sense of being over or underwhelmed!

Over or under nourishing (food, drink, exercise, sex,)

Phobias

Addiction

 

Sometimes we can’t put our finger on what is wrong this can make us unsure to what it is that is going on within us! We often blame our surroundings or circumstances, perhaps other people in our lives. The part of us that is holding on tight finds it hard to release us from its grip on what it feels is right. This part of us has created a way of surviving and even though the trauma has passed it just won’t let up!

 

Sometimes this is conscious and sometimes this is unconscious.

 

What does this mean?

Conscious-we have symptoms that we cannot ignore easily and are aware of the presence of survival self. We may except it or dislike it but we are aware of it.

Unconscious – we are in denial or cannot feel that something is up; we convince ourselves all is normal. Or perhaps what is holding us back is inherited/passed down through the family nurture and has become such an ingrained part of the personality that no separation in awareness is possible.

 

 

We are not always ready or prepared to acknowledge, or hear, or

admit the issue.

 

In this case our very clever coping mechanisms come into play.

 

What are coping mechanisms?

They are ways that we devise or put into place to cope with situations, people, feelings, when we feel under attack or unsafe in some way. This could include shutting down our emotions, putting up walls, reaching for stimulants, running away, with-drawing physically or emotionally and may more.

 

What are your coping mechanisms?

 

Have a ponder on this. Maybe look at how some of your family and friends cope with their dramas. It can sometimes be easier to identify issues in those close to us. We can then look at the reflections of the people in our lives and find out interesting knowledge about ourselves.

 

“We chase relief from pain rather than release the pain.”

 

This statement is defiantly in the modern moment of our times. How many of us have been to the Dr’s for help with emotional disease and come away with pills and potions designed to mask and hide pain and not to understand or eradicate it? It is up to the individual to take the brave journey of self discovery to find out how to make the changes necessary to bring us into balance and peace. Society has not caught up yet but it will.

We experience trauma and we collect baggage!

We may not be responsible for the trauma but we are responsible for the baggage. When we look at the life that we lead and the planet that we live on we can see it is polarized. This means there will be love and fear, pleasure and pain, good and bad but all these extremes are subjective. One persons opinion on what is good can be another’s bad and so on. Everyone will have a story, some more extreme than others. To me pain is pain. If a client feels pain in any way it is real and valid no matter what the story. They may not have been responsible for the happening of the pain but they are responsible for holding onto the pain. It has become their personal pain and only they can relieve themselves from it. 

The build up of negative experience and our coping mechanisms become our baggage. This baggage holds us back from reaching our potential.

 

What does potential mean?

We are beings of pure potential, unlimited in every way. We have the source within us to create whatever we desire. We have the ability to feel happy in each moment and grow with least effort, spiritually, emotionally and physically.

 

 

We hold onto all sorts of baggage. For example, the responsibility for others can be become part of our baggage. We are not responsible for anyone but ourselves. Even our children, we have a responsibility to but not for!

What are you holding onto in the belief that it is your duty to be or to do?

 

We have been programmed to comply with societies needs. We are told it is for the common good when in fact it only serves to control us with limitations. We would be considered to be dangerous if we express and live free thinking and being. Only you can make the changes necessary to free yourself from the baggage given to you and the baggage you have collected.

 

How to release?

 

·        The first step is to accept that there is an imbalance that needs addressing.

·        The second step is to identify the imbalance – this can be physical emotional or spiritual, all 3 are intertwined.

·        The third step is to release it.

 

Then you are ready for…..

 

·        The forth step is the letting go.

·        The fifth step is surrender.

 

There are many ways to release; each person will have their own ways to the different layers of dysfunction within them.

 

Examples: –

v Communication – talking about your feelings will bust open the hidden issues and exposes the ego. By giving yourself a voice your expression brings clarity to any situation and offers it out to the universe. It becomes a collective issue and therefore can receive the help needed to dispel it.

v Healing- All types but especially soul rescue

v Workshops – group work can be a great way to retrieve unconscious imbalance. When we listen to other people speak their truth it can spark an acknowledgement in us. We can then view ourselves from a different perspective and bring a new way of understanding what is truly going on.

v Tears

v Forgiveness

v Acceptance                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           Love Anna x  

Spiritual Magic

Magic is creative energy.

Our social understanding of magic holds the view that magic is illusions or tricks that are presented to us by magicians and illusionist, or that it dark and evil and not to be trusted because it is unsafe and can destroy rather than create.

We have lost faith in true magic as an energy source available to all. The underworld or magical kingdom of fairies and the unseen creatures of god help mother earth to keep order. They work wholly with magic and will help us when called upon them to boost our magical gifts to create.

The real magic is universal magic. By changing your perception of magic you will be able to unlock your own power and this will allow you to embrace your own god and enable you to help the world become a more magical place. Whether it is good or bad magic depends on your intention and your definition of good and bad. The universe will respond equally to all.

We feel magic in our hands, we are where we are today because of the magic we create with our hands. In our culture we shake hands as a greeting of respect, exchanging our energy, offering our magic.  If you have ever given or received healing you will have experienced the magic of the universe through your hands or body which brings you into balance with the universe. By balance I mean unity or oneness, dissolving separation between your chakras and opening up communication.

The creative magic of the universe is available to all of us. This powerful life force is constant and unlimited. Some people are abundant with this life force; communicating with the resonance and sound of the universe enabling them to co-create.

We create magic with our thoughts and our actions. It is our choices that define the magic that we use and these choices draw magic to us in each moment of each and every night and day. For most of us this is an unconscious state of being and can be fraught with negativity. We have the power to create or to destroy.

To understand your own personal magic you will need to understand a little of who you are and the potential that you hold. Locked within your being is your potential which can often be hidden within your archetypes.

Very often we are stuck in illusions that create negative self beliefs. These negative beliefs push their way forward into our conscious making judgements and criticisms, our illusionary truth and stop our authentic self being heard.

Which archetype is shouting the loudest and having the biggest intact on your truth?

Archetypes

Human beings are complex and multi faceted creatures made up of a body, a conscious mind, an unconscious mind and a spirit (which some say is our unconscious mind) All the separate parts of our being collectively work together as a team allowing us to resonate as our whole self. The fact that we are born with these separate parts makes it possible to separate further which creates our archetypes. So within each one of us are many personalities/archetypes helping us to make sense of our existence and to help us to understand the relationships that we have with the world, each other and ourselves.

These personalities have within them the possibility to be negative and positive. We use them to express ourselves in the collective as a response to our ego/identity and when in the positive they can help to create fulfilling relationships with others. In the negative our perceptions are distorted and we find it hard to relate to others in truth and our authentic self gets lost this creates subject illusion instead of objective reality.

It is our childhood experiences that create these archetypes. We draw on our environment using our senses and react to the surrounding influences. These influences can have a positive or negative effect on our ability to self love. They form our identity and if our identity of self (body, mind and soul) is judgemental and full of criticism we are not able to connect to our god and a wedge of separation occurs between the human and the divine self.

To understand our archetypes will enable us break down the illusions and allow us to choose who we would like to be. Free will and choice is our divine right. We do this without blame and with awareness and by using our spiritual magic we can strengthen the positive and let go of the negative.

This can only be done by you, it is our reasonability to create happiness and peace no matter what challenges life his thrown at us. One of the things spiritual magic gives us is the understanding that all is possible.

First there is an acorn

Early last year, I attended Anna Taylor’s Medium’s class as a relative newcomer.

As usual, Anna set out the guide lines for that evening’s meditation. We should all try to visualize an acorn through its development into a tree and, if possible, take a message from each stage of its development – stressing to me, that I should concentrate on its early development underground before its ascendency.

After our usual preparation of deep breathing and sending our roots down to Mother Earth, I waited.

It was a while before the rain came to germinate the seed. But it did. And I could see the acorn growing to a sapling, when, surprisingly, it was transplanted.

Soon after, I became conscious of the sound of a buzz-saw and could see my sapling growing in an area of cultivation.

  At this time, my spirit companion, St Joan, showed me a long plank of wood, trimmed and ready for use. And whilst the sapling grew into a sturdy oak tree, the image of the plank remained.

Joan’s message was that while the spirit of the tree longs to grow in height and provide homes for birds and other wildlife, it submits to the needs of the planter.

  In the same way, whilst we may desire a long and happy life we must also submit to God’s plan for us – not all journeys are alike.

At the end of the meditation I recounted my story, however, it was not until a day or two later that I realised the poignancy of the message, since Joan was burnt at a wooden stake from a fire lit with kindling wood.

On a lighter note, the story title is adapted from the Donovan song – First there is a Mountain, and recalls the acorn before germination to the point where the outer shell disintegrates – then there is no acorn until, the fully grown tree produces its own acorns – then there is!

In the darkness and the light

In the darkness rests all that I don’t want to see, all that I feel is missing from me.

In the darkness the silence dwells, the mystery, the void, maybe hell.

Or maybe is peace a joy to behold. Restful, calming, a place where I feel safe.

To venture in would be so brave, so courageous, really very bold.

It doesn’t feel like a place I can just pop to; it feels like a commitment is needed, a decision to go.

I sit in silence one eye in the light another on the dark,

One foot is always ready to bring me back in the light,

Never fully experiencing All that Is because the fear holds where the light is.

 

But in the distance, far in front of me

I see the Grandmother, waiting to care for me.

Her face is kind & arms are warm, the darkness

Surrounds her, but it means no harm.

I’ll step forward & put both feet in,

Succumb to the darkness & all that may bring.

It feels so warm so cosy & safe, so very

Peaceful. The quietness is like a divine embrace

I’ll stay a while & see what develops,

See what I’ve been missing, what needs to be,

Looking at this very special, unknown part of me

 

By Gemma Taylor